Out with the Old

We finally did it! We have been shopping for a new bed and spending lots of time laying on them. We first thought we would want a sleep number bed. Those we have talked to love theirs, and DH and I have such different comfort wishes that we thought it would be the best option. We left the Sleep Number store feeling as if we had had a lot of hot air blown up our *sses. 

So then we went to Mathis Brothers to try some memory foam options. There were a couple of maybes there, but they were all pretty expensive. We only had about 40 minutes to try the beds...not nearly enough time to really know. So we left still unsure. 

Sunday after church we decide to stop by a local furniture store, Furniture Showcase,  just to see what they had. We tried Serta, Tempur-pedic, and Sealy. After 2 hours of laying around I needed a nap, but we had narrowed it down to a Tempur-Pedic and a Serta icomfort. We took a break for a few days...school and work keeping us busy. Fall break arrives and we head back to Furniture Showcase to lay on the two finalists again. We really liked the Tempur-Pedic but not the price tag. The icomfort was just a little softer and just not working for us so we moved to the bed next to it. It was still an icomfort and it was a little firmer and a whole lot less expensive than the Tempur-Pedic.  We were sold. It arrived today!!! Here is to no sore back tomorrow morning!

Round 2 Begins!!

I feel excited, nervous, scared out of my mind. Yesterday our Meds arrived and they ordered more this time since I had to get several refills last cycle. Freakin out looking at all the Meds!

My suppression check was yesterday and the ultrasound showed 2 large cysts on my right ovary. One was 40mm the other 25mm. But on a happier note my E2 level was only 29 which means we got to start meds last night with a Lupron injection. Lupron every twelve hours and tomorrow I begin the Follistim and Menopur. 

Hubby and I are in the car headed toward my first cyst aspiration. The RE thinks I will respond better if those little buggers are gone. Just took my Valium and hydrocodone...this could get interesting!

Chemical Pregnancy

That is what you call it....whatever it is, it sucks.  My period finally came, five days after I knew this pregnancy would not be viable.  It has been the hardest five days I have ever endured.  For the first two days, I was inconsolable.  I am finally able to function and am back at work, I'm fine as long as I don't talk about it.  We return to see Dr. K. on Tuesday to find out where we go from here.  I am scared to move forward, fearing that I will not be able to be as relaxed as I was this cycle.  Afraid I will not be able to trust in God's plan.  Afraid that the next cycle will end like this one...

Devastation...

We did our second beta hcg test today since Friday's was so low. It went down to 5.2. This pregnancy is over, our hearts are broken.

The Results are In!!

I am officially pregnant for the first time EVER!!!!!!! It is a very bittersweet feeling because my HcG level is very low (7.5), but high enough to still be considered positive. We will return on Monday to be tested again, hopefully our numbers will move up a lot this weekend! But, I am PREGNANT!!!

Progesterone Check up

Yesterday was a tough day.  My husband was late to our appointment, so I was done before he arrived.  He was furious at me :( But during the appointment I had the typical 3 pokes before they found a vein.  Then they unceremoniously pulled out a paper to sign showing that the other 5 of our embryos were not suitable for cryo-preservation.  My heart sank.  If these two little babies don't latch on and continue to grow....we are back a square one.  The tears flowed freely most of the day!  Then the clinic called to tell me I have to up my dose of Progesterone to 1.5 ml and also add suppositories.  Yikes.  The nurse had told me that about 50% of women have to increase so not to worry.  I was so tired yesterday.  When we finally got home, after plant shopping and car shopping, I was beat.  My mom has taken such good care of me this week.  She hung out, cleaned, and packed until Ron got home, then she headed out.  I miss her!

Who thought bed rest would be so hard!!

5 hours to go until I reach 48 hours. Then I can have a shower....  Sure hope these babies have made their home.  Laying so long has given me terrible back pain. Hours of spasms starting at 1:30 am Thursday. So bad I had to get up. Hubs was so sweet to rub my back and every time I moved the rest of the night he would wake up and make sure I was okay. Poor guy had to work yesterday, I'm sure it was a tough day for him. I still had to lay around and was finally able to start sitting up a bit yesterday evening. Today I can shower!!!!